I am a misfit. I've been that way since I was a small child. For some reason, all my life, people avoid me like the plague, and notice my shyness. I'm just a very unlikeable person somehow. All of the friendships I've ever had eventually "expire" and I have no one in my life that truly cares about me. This problem has rolled over into every other aspect of my life, finding a job with decent pay that is related to my degree, being able to support myself. I have no connections, and my lack of self-esteem prevents me from showing the confidence/persistence I need to be hired.

It's very hard to concentrate and have a normal schedule when your emotional state changes hour by hour unbearably. I don't know what else to do. No one seems to have much sympathy for it, but I think they simply don't understand why someone would be the way I am. It's overwhelming, its not something you can control with willpower.