How many of your are lowly empathic but highly moral?

[crazyladybutterfly]

I would describe myself in such way.
I think I am even a sadist as a side of me wickedly enjoys seeing others suffering, this part of me scares me and disgusts me. I do feel this sentiment towards humans , I dont remember feeling it towards animals (at best i smile when an animal has weird reactions for something that isn't a threat .. but it then activates by motherhood istincts so it doesnt really scare me) .. only humans

The first time I watched an ISIS video (guess the kind) I thought it was fucked up but I didnt feel much for the victims , instead the "sadistic part of me" activated.
I feel like I am unable to feel emotion for someone else, I did feel sorry for abused and bullied children/teens but that's probably because I can think of myself even though they experienced much more.

I can't form any bond with anyone either ... I mean unless I financially depend on you I won't really stay with you and even in this case I am cold towards the person.

I am also quite fearless , i used to fear as a child but now not anymore. a couple of years ago an idiot , on motorcycle, tried to scare me by trying to make me believe he was going to hit me ... well I laughed back...

I am obsessed with death , both mine and of others and this explains my interest in wars and why I wanted to join the army... this isnt psychopathic but my biggest desire is to die in a battlefield. But the italian army rarely engages in combats, women aren't allowed to fight moreover see the mess in iraq? I don't want to be in part responsible for something similar ... I thought about fleeing in Syria and joining the peshmerga but I read foreigners aren't allowed to fight and if I get captured by the enemy (not the syrian army) it might cost a fortune to my government and help islamists a lot.. I should change my nationality but with which nationality? how? what impact would it have in my life? what about my dog?

I am also easily bored , quite unattentive (though this is adhd trait , it is common among people with aspd) and most importantly impulsive.

So in few words i would say I have some sociopathic tendencies , on an emotional level, but somehow I managed to be highly moral.. to the point I wouldnt steal to feed myself ..

Anyone like this here?

[Hadouken]

[crazyladybutterfly]

[Indomitable]

WTF

[Mingle]

Are you serious about the wanting to die in battle? You're not saying that cause you're high or anything (no offense).

[crazyladybutterfly]

WTF

is it really that weird? lol

[crazyladybutterfly]

Are you serious about the wanting to die in battle? You're not saying that cause you're high or anything (no offense).

i will kill myself in a way or another .. and i want to do it soon.. at least I would "die for a cause" and not have a completely vain life

[Profileid]

Your punctuation...I know it's dickish to correct but this has been bothering me for a long time.
You, don't put a space before the comma, but after it.

[Mingle]

i will kill myself in a way or another .. and i want to do it soon.. at least I would "die for a cause" and not have a completely vain life

Wtf?? Why? Have you been watching some martyrdom videos recently or something?

[crazyladybutterfly]

Wtf?? Why? Have you been watching some martyrdom videos recently or something?

I AM AN ATHEIST chill lol I will just kill myself while listening to some requiem lol