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I wandered off topic though. I did feel repulsed by her while I was laying next to her. I was 17 and she 15, but I never met a girl I got along with so well. Immature as I was I got confused that I wasn't physically as attracted to her as I emotionally liked her and that scared me. I decided to break off the relationship before I got caught in the endless maelstrom of a lengthy make-pretend relationship. The image of a man who lost his attraction to her giving his woman a blue bean all the time came to mind and repulsed myself from the past (like you see in some comedy sketches of some married couples). I was too young to commit to such a relationship that was losing its spark so soon all the while her sex drive remained undiminished.
However, the lack of attraction vanished when I was 19 and that happened overnight. And this attraction never went away.
I remember when I was 18, my best friend came over and logged in his MSN on my computer. She logged on and I shuddered. Why? Because I wanted to avoid her because she was still into me and I wasn't into her. As a teenage boy you are very picky because a whole world still lies ahead of you and you're bursting of energy. But I did literally feel repulsed by her. I dunno why I wasn't at a later stage. My maturing? Very likely.
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