Are you depressed?

[Drawing-slim]

Fuck it, i'll just turn this into some semi persinal blog of my poker daily/weekly adventure.
Last night was a crucial bad night because after moving down in levels i focused still and with only $200 starting I build it up to $1300 in 3 hours. Then i lost it all in 1 hour, in 2 hours i build it back up to 1400.
Then, i got myself in perfect postion to win a $3100 hand.
Me and two other guys had over 1k we all went all in three way action. I have top set of jacks with 9 6 J flop. Me being 55% and each one of them having 23% with both having straight draw, plo game.
We made a deal to run the board twice turn a river, all having two chances fir safety. In this sitaution im 55% twice. And both times i lost to 23 percenters.
This happened after a week in hell losing over 10k on bigger game game. Missing out on 5k hands and 2500 pots.
Now i have to start smal again, and be happy not to lose at best try to make little by little till i get to same point again, giving myself those bigger chances.
And this is the hardest part, stepping down in levels and staying motivated by small amounts, and still just as hard to win.
But i been here countless times before. So i do not doubt myself. Is just a matter of time.

So

[Kazimiera]

"In good times and in bad, in sickness and in health." did you not take this vow together when you got married? you shouldn't think like that. He loves you. My uncle's wife has cancer and he is taking care of her because he loves her.

And you will get better. Just stop being so pessimistic. If you try to keep being your sweet lively self full of joy you will get through this.

You know I had the urge to give this post a thumb down. You should throw away such thoughts. It pisses me off.

So do you believe in love or not? when people marry do they think they will stay all healthy, young and sexy for the rest of their lives? love is beyond that, people marry to age and become old bags together.

You are very right and I believe that too. It's just a situational downer and I'll swing up again soon. The last two weeks have been tough on me and I'm feeling a little rough around the edges. I've been in and out of hospital (as you know), blood tests, feeling shitty, being worried, thinking about my future.... and it's hard. Considering the circumstances I think I'm doing quite well. It takes a hell of a lot to break me, and I'm not at breaking point, just feeling emotionally fragile and bruised. Once I have regained equilibrium (when my mind and body catch up with each other again) I'll feel better again.

if i had a chance to neet your husband i wouod tell him the truth. He married a sweet beautiful soul and what a lucky bastard he is.

That is so sweet of you. Thank you! I will tell him that!

[EL_BARBARO]

I lost over 10k. Fuck it. I'll make it back but who knows how and how long but i always make it back. Thats because i dont surrender till i drop dead.

[Drawing-slim]

I just started watching the Wire HBO's greatest show i heard. So i finished almost ten episides and have tons of hours to get lost in my world while playing poker. Weed in my car and bose headphones. Im gonna turn into a fucking robot, just stubbornly patently waiting and grinding my way up again.

[Voskos]

do you play poker at least as good as phil helmuth?

[Drawing-slim]

do you play poker at least as good as phil helmuth?

In my game he would never beat me. I play medium cash games and he plays high buy in tournaments. Cash game daily grinders are way more skillfull as a genral rule.

[Ujku]

lol are u a proffesional poker player?

[Drawing-slim]

lol are u a proffesional poker player?

I refuse to call myself a "profesional" but i play as much or more than pros. Hours wise.

[Ujku]

I refuse to call myself a "profesional" but i play as much or more than pros. Hours wise.

Are you playing poker for a living?

[Drawing-slim]

Are you playing poker for a living?

yes, for all my adult life pretty much. But still, i see it as a game, i dont like the label "pro".