Brynhild
09-10-2009, 11:48 PM
I've had a really rotten experience of this sort happen to me lately. Somebody who I thought was halfway to decent (an occultist in the OTO - sorry Psy, I know of your past involvement but a lot of its members are just bad news!) was psychically attacking me and embedded a hook in my aura. I don't know if other Heathens believe in this possibility, but if you do any magical work you are vulnerable, regardless of your practice.
Anyway, I found out last night just how nasty this person is and I completely lost it. For the first time, I set out to deliberately attack a person on this level, as a way of retribution. Let's say I didn't hold back in my level of attacking him either! :D It also serves as a warning that I will never be messed with on this level, ever again! I don't feel guilty at all for taking this course of action, in fact I feel quite good about it. I'm living my truth and I have the courage to stand up for myself.
Has this experience happened to anyone else, that they're aware of? The signs are simple enough to spot. You could actually see this person attacking you in your dreams, or you wake up with stomach cramps (like I did). You get a sense of not feeling right in general, and you feel that way when you suddenly think about somebody. What would you do, or what have you done?
My way may not necessarily be the right way and I'm not advocating it. However, I had been repeatedly attacked by this person, and the way he went about it was clever. What's brought him undone was when he made the mistake of telling someone we both know what he thought of me, used my feelings towards him against me and twisted the truth in such a way that made him look like a victim. My only mistake was caring for somebody who clearly doesn't deserve it. He also made the mistake of assuming that I'm ignorant to Magic, and that I'm helpless in defending myself.
After last night, I would've made it very clear to him just how much he fucked up in his judgement of me. I'm still angry but the worst has passed. I will put it down to experience and move on. I'm also protecting myself and my surroundings better, because I don't want this to happen again.
Anyway, I found out last night just how nasty this person is and I completely lost it. For the first time, I set out to deliberately attack a person on this level, as a way of retribution. Let's say I didn't hold back in my level of attacking him either! :D It also serves as a warning that I will never be messed with on this level, ever again! I don't feel guilty at all for taking this course of action, in fact I feel quite good about it. I'm living my truth and I have the courage to stand up for myself.
Has this experience happened to anyone else, that they're aware of? The signs are simple enough to spot. You could actually see this person attacking you in your dreams, or you wake up with stomach cramps (like I did). You get a sense of not feeling right in general, and you feel that way when you suddenly think about somebody. What would you do, or what have you done?
My way may not necessarily be the right way and I'm not advocating it. However, I had been repeatedly attacked by this person, and the way he went about it was clever. What's brought him undone was when he made the mistake of telling someone we both know what he thought of me, used my feelings towards him against me and twisted the truth in such a way that made him look like a victim. My only mistake was caring for somebody who clearly doesn't deserve it. He also made the mistake of assuming that I'm ignorant to Magic, and that I'm helpless in defending myself.
After last night, I would've made it very clear to him just how much he fucked up in his judgement of me. I'm still angry but the worst has passed. I will put it down to experience and move on. I'm also protecting myself and my surroundings better, because I don't want this to happen again.