How do you feel at this very moment?

[Oghuz]

Thanks guys!





I've been struggling with the endometriosis for about 25 years. It isn't something that happened suddenly. There was going to come a day when everything imploded and last weekend was that day.

Fortunately I never wanted children. I suspect I would have had problems getting pregnant and suffered from infertility due to the extent of the disease. Fertility (or the lack thereof) isn't something that ever concerned me. I don't regret not having children. I know for some (most) people it is very important but for me it was a non-issue.

It does feel strange though. Physically strange. I've been living my normal everyday life with my bladder fused onto my uterus for years. Now that my bladder has been released, having a pee is a whole new experience. What I was doing before and what I am doing now are completely different. I still need to get my head around this being the new normal. It's like I'm in a new body and I still have to figure out how everything works. It's only been four days so I'm sure I will encounter some more surprises along the way.

Get well soon and lots of love!

[Laredo]

Feeling like cuddling with Feiichy right now under the blankets.

[Kess]

Surprised and happy.

[calxpal]

Aloof and coffee-fueled lol. I've been trying to imagine myself dressing up for a night club hehe who can see this?

[merix]

Hungry and bored

[Kazimiera]

It's two weeks after my hysterectomy and I am doing surprisingly well.

All that crazy walking helped make recovery go a lot faster.

I wanted to go back to work this week but it won't be possible. My abdomen still feels very thick and heavy although the bruising is almost gone. There is still pain but it is manageable. I can't cough without pain yet and I try hard not to laugh too loudly because it hurts. But I'm slowly getting better.

Because my ovaries were removed too, I am now officially in menopause. Instead of slowly slipping into and out of it in my 50's, it has started hitting me like a train. And let me tell you this, it ain't a walk in the park.

My moods in the past two weeks have become completely irrational. I am completely unrecognizable to myself. I mean, the other night I was sitting and doing my crochet, and crying buckets whilst listening to Pantera. Who the fuck cries at heavy metal music???? Less that half an hour later I came across a song that gave me so much lust for living. I was ready to party like it's 1989. I haven't turned aggressive (yet) and hopefully won't. We are bundle of menopausal women at work which could lead to conflict when everyone's are out of sync with each other. I'm joining the rest of the insane menopausals at work now, even I'm 10 years younger than the rest. I have general way of wiping my ass on bitch co-workers but this might bring my inner bitch out. I'm not looking forwards to that.

Also, the hot flushes have started. It started as a strange vibration in my abdomen, which crawled up my chest and ended feeling like blow torch being lit in my face. That was no fun. I'm sweating buckets when it's cold outside.

Things down there don't smell the same either. In an intact female, the vagina is most acidic. In menopause it becomes alkaline. So I'm experiencing some weird and wonderful smells down there that aren't particularly pleasant.

My vagina has been cut off and tied into knot.

My husband said there is no way he is going anywhere near November.

Lots of new things I have to become accustomed to.

But I have the support of the two most lovely men in my who look after me welll

In a nutshell, besides the pain, I am happy.

[Ylla]

Wishing you a speedy recovery Kaz!! That sounds so tough. Sending love to you and all the best.