99% sure I was raped by a random black stranger at a party (serious replies only please)

[Queenmab]

Stories like this got innocent blacks lynched back in the day. Hope you're not trolling.

I'm not trolling. I have absolutely nothing against black people. I'd be destroyed by what has happened to me regardless of the race of the rapist, but the race of the person I was seen with before I went missing adds an extra layer of complication to this. I am not in any position to raise a child and I am DEFINITELY in no position to raise a mixed race child. I have barely any understanding of black issues and trying to parent this child (assuming I am pregnant) myself would be a disservice to it.

[Queenmab]

I've just sent a message to my doctor via my insurance's app. I should have done that first. There's a part of me that really doesn't want to know, but I need to know just for practical reasons so I know whether or not to stop taking my anticonvulsants.

[Queenmab]

Maybe a woman's support group that specializes in these experiences? You can always try out online support groups if it too much for your anxiety.
Nevertheless, you should feel free to do whatever you think is best for yourself.

I understand that its quite a sensitive issue so I can respect that entirely. Maybe taking a break from such social gatherings can help alleviate the anxiety for the time being will help your mind relax more in your own comfort zone. Maybe seeing a shrink or telling someone you can trust close to you can help alleviate the bottled up emotions at a comfortable pace you are most comfortable with?

Nevertheless, I wish you well in your recovery and you have my sincerest condolences!

Thank you. I have barely interacted with anyone since it happened. I have social anxiety so I'm not the most sociable person at the best of times (bordering on agoraphobic), but now I'm just sort of petrified by the idea of being out in public at all. I've barely spoken to anyone in my family and no one has really checked on me. It's ironic, because they're furious at me for leaving my sister there, but she and her friends, who I thought were also my friends to an extent, just let me go off with some random person they'd never met.

I think in my case the most guilt-free thing to do would be having the baby if I'm pregnant and give it up for adoption.

[Wadaad]

I'm not trolling. I have absolutely nothing against black people. I'd be destroyed by what has happened to me regardless of the race of the rapist, but the race of the person I was seen with before I went missing adds an extra layer of complication to this. I am not in any position to raise a child and I am DEFINITELY in no position to raise a mixed race child. I have barely any understanding of black issues and trying to parent this child (assuming I am pregnant) myself would be a disservice to it.

What do you remember from your interaction with the Black guy? How do you know it was him who did something...maybe you were unconscsious for a long time and a whole bunch of men raped you?

Where were your supposed friends since this was in a public setting? (the beach)

[Dick]

What do you remember from your interaction with the Black guy? How do you know it was him who did something...maybe you were unconscsious for a long time and a whole bunch of men raped you?

Where were your supposed friends since this was in a public setting? (the beach)

[Óttar]

[Queenmab]

What do you remember from your interaction with the Black guy? How do you know it was him who did something...maybe you were unconscsious for a long time and a whole bunch of men raped you?

Where were your supposed friends since this was in a public setting? (the beach)

I remember NOTHING of my interaction with the black guy. I don't remember him at all and only know of him from the descriptions of other people who were there. I remember nothing after my first drink. My so-called friends (really my sister's friends, but I've known them so long I've come to see them as my friends too) apparently let me wander off with a random person they didn't know and didn't try to check on me or anything. Different people who were there said I was talking to a black guy before I disappeared.

[Mortimer]

I'll still have to delay graduate school in that case, but that seems like the best option for me considering I would always feel guilty if I aborted it. I don't know if my family will support me though and I have no idea how much it will cost to give birth and get prenatal care. I'm not exactly rich. Part of me wants to kill this thing if it is indeed growing inside me out of revenge, but it wouldn't be the baby's fault that its father was a rapist. I'm also on anticonvulsants for epilepsy and if I continue to take them an infant could become ill, but if I go off them for the duration of the pregnancy, I'll be at risk for seizures.

Im a Christian but I think in some cases abortion is ok like if the womans life or health is at stage or if she was raped (doesnt matter if he was black or white). I think its ok if you abort. But ask a doctor, a womans help group etc.

[Dick]

I remember NOTHING of my interaction with the black guy. I don't remember him at all and only know of him from the descriptions of other people who were there. I remember nothing after my first drink. My so-called friends (really my sister's friends, but I've known them so long I've come to see them as my friends too) apparently let me wander off with a random person they didn't know and didn't try to check on me or anything. Different people who were there said I was talking to a black guy before I disappeared.

He wasn't black. He was Italian. You're being racist.

[Wadaad]

I remember NOTHING of my interaction with the black guy. I don't remember him at all and only know of him from the descriptions of other people who were there. I remember nothing after my first drink. My so-called friends (really my sister's friends, but I've known them so long I've come to see them as my friends too) apparently let me wander off with a random person they didn't know and didn't try to check on me or anything. Different people who were there said I was talking to a black guy before I disappeared.

hmm..well, I wish you the best on your quest to find answers and justice. However, take heed of this fellow Anglo woman: