Originally Posted by
pablo-ali
I have already checked that with several psychologists. All ok with me. Just they either tell me I just don't fit in, or tell me I'm welcome and all's good, then suddenly they change their approach to me with no explanation.
I mean, one person once told me about some tourist attractions in the area, then I checked them and asked him on facebook, if he knows any other ones. I kept asking every day for a week, he was just reading and not responding.
I found some RL activity group on facebook, in another region, and asked if I can join - the admin said "yes", and added me to the group. Then, they were posting in the "events" page, every month, a post that had nothing but hotel's name - no description, nothing. I asked what will be happening there, should I come too - no response. After 3 months, I got banned from posting for a week - and, after that week, I got removed from the group. I asked why - no response.
Then, suddenly, after 6 months, one of the admins responded - I got removed, because everyone was speaking against me. People who I've never ever seen in my life.
Found another group of RL activity on facebook, this time closer to my town, so I could pay them a visit at any time. They said I need a training, and if there is a group for it, it will happen in September, they'll tell me later. So, I waited. June has passed. It was July - I asked if there is any news - they said "not until September". I started asking another people in the group, how does the group work, what are the rules - "we're open to everyone, just follow the rules, it's simple, no racism, no bullying, etc". Then OK, I'll certainly get in. July passed, it was 27th August - still no news. So, I asked again, if there are any news about the group - the next day, I saw that she read the post and didn't respond, So, I asked the question again - and turned out I'm blocked. So, I attended a RL meeting of that group - all was well, they didn't take me because I didn't show up in September. They blocked me because I messaged the wrong page, I should be messaging the page for training. So, I messaged it - and they blocked me too. I messaged another guy from the group - he started to throw extreme hate speech at me, and said I got voted against because of "racism". Yes. I Have no idea what I did or said what was racist, I never said anything related to any race, not to think about something offending. It felt as if they were offended, because I didn't support their race as the superior one.
Now, all groups at my hobby show extreme levels of hate towards me, I have no idea why, and now I'm stuck with TV and video games, because I'm forced to abandon my hobbies.
And, those that don't shadowy block me - they just say that "they cannot accept me to the group as it's now", or "I would not fit" - basically, something that emphasizes that it's not my fault, but the group is very specific in finding members.
IDK, maybe I should give up sports at all? People say "lose weight, lose weight, lose weight" while I'm only gaining muscles. Maybe it's not a bad idea, after alll?
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