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So I was lying in bed when thoughts about terminal diseases popped up and that led to ones of throat cancer.
So whatever... it's not that I haven't thought of these already but thought to give it a try(tried it 1-2 times before?don't remember how long it lasted) ,got up,took the smoke etc and hid them in the bedside table.
God's my witness,I'm not addicted to the nicotine ,In fact I don't get pleasure/buzz from it or somatic cravings/withdrawal symptoms If I stop,I don't recognize these things.
In my case ,it stems from intense boredom ,I always want to do something to occupy my brain ,it's more like a compulsive behavior/ritual ,when I wake up I have conditioned myself to drink the coffee with it,after eating "now what?"or when I drink a soda and when I go out same thing ,I can't stand still on a chair doing nothing.One more trigger is when I see others doing it.
I thought of ordering herbal cigarettes, a thing actors use I've read..for a trial but it won't lead anywhere +it will be waste of money,it's either cold turkey or you fool yourself.
So I don't know,I can't think of another "ritual" to replace it.What do you think?and what other quitters have to say?
I eat two meals a day,If I replace the smoking with food like when I wake up with the coffee or later with sodas,that would be as bad.
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