On only one occasion has a fantasy novel moved me to tears

[Dna8]

If I am not mistaken, I shed tears during the conclusion of, White Gold Wielder, the last book in the second trilogy of, The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant the Unbeliever.

Assuming I recall correctly, my emotional reaction was a response to Covenant, the series' protagonist, experiencing catharsis.

I speculate that I was moved to tears on account or relating with the following particular aspect of the protagonist's character: his chronic and unrelenting psychic tension (along the lines of neuroticism).

The premise of the series is such that Thomas Covenant wakes up in an alternative world/reality subsequent to being hit by a police car (immediately prior to being hit by a police car, Covenant has an encounter with a curiously robed beggar, who makes several cryptic pronouncements, and leaves Covenant with the admonition to "be true.").

The premise in and of itself, structurally, accommodates my appetite for reading as "escape". Covenant's position* - the sheer black and white of it (as one discovers while the series develops) - appeals to my own tendency for black and white thinking.

To elaborate upon my own experience/habit of black and white, or, extreme, thinking: it is a psychological phenomenon cousin to [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Splitt...y)#Depression], I hypothesize.

I also identify as a Covert or Secret Schizoid, in certain respects.

While I am a psyche aficionado and a lover of subcultures, if psyches are stringed instruments, I have a powerful need/drive for my own to be single stringed.


* Is the alternative reality he finds himself in real or not (is it objectively real and in existence or a figment of his imagination (perhaps, a motif from the coma or delirium he is in on account of being hit by the police car)?)?

[Mortimer]

I dont rememer shedding tears to a movie but I shed tears to a song once. I had goose bumps over my back and had tears in my eyes.

[Dna8]

I look forward to a new sense of self occupying the remainder of my thirties, at least.

As intimated in another thread.

[KuriousKatKommittee]

I also identify as a Covert or Secret Schizoid, in certain respects.

"Many schizoid individuals display an engaging, interactive personality, contradicting the observable characteristic emphasized by the DSM-5 and ICD-10 definitions of the schizoid personality. Guntrip (using ideas of Klein, Fairbairn and Winnicott) classifies these individuals as "secret schizoids", who behave with socially available, interested, engaged and involved interaction yet remain emotionally withdrawn and sequestered within the safety of the internal world.^[22]:17[35]"

Translated: Introvert but pretending to be extrovert. (These fucking fancy pseudo-psychiatric terms, psychology truly is pseudoscience lol.)

While I am a psyche aficionado and a lover of subcultures, if psyches are stringed instruments, I have a powerful need/drive for my own to be single stringed.

On only one occasion has a fantasy novel moved me to tears

I feel you, dawg. I reserve my feelings to myself but am moved by your [nerd horoscope intensifies] (Fi) (Introverted Feeling) expression of attempting to balance your "genuine" self and your "people-pleasing" side (by that I mean conforming to societal expectations about who you should be based on arbitrary criteria unaligned with how you feel or think) of you which is natural of all even remotely socially functional introverts. Of course you are moved by any piece of art that acknowledges your feelings even in a small way because society doesn't care about us. About me, an almost socially retarded aspie, you, but even more extreme cases like psychopaths (Joker) and schizophrenics - there is no distinction in "normies"' eyes; all who do not conform to the current preapproved societal standard are freaks to "normies."

[Dna8]

Translated: Introvert but pretending to be extrovert. (These fucking fancy pseudo-psychiatric terms, psychology truly is pseudoscience lol.)


I feel you, dawg. I reserve my feelings to myself but am moved by your [nerd horoscope intensifies] (Fi) (Introverted Feeling) expression of attempting to balance your "genuine" self and your "people-pleasing" side (by that I mean conforming to societal expectations about who you should be based on arbitrary criteria unaligned with how you feel or think) of you which is natural of all even remotely socially functional introverts. Of course you are moved by any piece of art that acknowledges your feelings even in a small way because society doesn't care about us. About me, an almost socially retarded aspie, you, but even more extreme cases like psychopaths (Joker) and schizophrenics - there is no distinction in "normies"' eyes; all who do not conform to the current preapproved societal standard are freaks to "normies."

Thank you for your post