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Check your "COMT" genes on 23andme, I'm sure you have the high Dopamine variant.On account of my genes, I was born with a vulnerability to that construct of ours we name mental illness - vulnerable, in the meaning that I would be more likely than the majority of people to develop (and this notion of development is another construct of ours) psychiatric (construct) and, or, psychological (construct) illness.
I distinctly remember, being intellectually and, if I may recall so, eloquently aware, even in childhood, of the thoroughness of my introspection. I can describe to you how, one childhood afternoon, my brother and I, along with our mutual male NZ Indian, Hindi and English speaking (I am not making his heritage up - I am being truthful) friend, had been engaged with the latter's Sega Megadrive in the latter's bedroom, and how, while my brother and my South Asian friend were manipulating their respective game consoles in a bid to knock out the other's pixelated fighter, and while they were bantering and referencing the television screen and the present..
... I was engaged otherwise, my friend.
You wouldn't believe, with what proficiency, then as now, I've maintained silence in the presence of others. I take up less physical space than a man my same exact weight. And I have known how it can be like when one fumbles delivery of their spoken words for lack of practice.
My transition from early to post adolescence was dominated by a matter of biography, and I entered adulthood having had certain aspects of my psychosocial development compromised. Before university I had always had uno or dos close friends among the acquaintances, but after, I have had none (at least, none whom I can rep. comment).
Having expressed all that, now that Rome is nicely burning, Shirley I can fiddle?
I have been seated opposite a beautiful female colleague in a populous call centre, and sung to her, softly but prettily, when there had been no calls.
Once, I didn't in fact read a book, but my analysis of it earned me an A+, and an invitation to a well-to-do international tertiary essay contest.
I oblige my whimsies more vigorously than most and when I build a psychic wind, I tell you, I have been known to hunt for magic mushrooms in the dark without a source of light.. write love letters of notable quality - one was so lovely that my recipient risked her employment by replying to me with her number (she was a rehab clinician).. render myself homeless because regarding falling asleep, ceiling is a poor man's night sky.
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