relationship ptsd

[War Chef]

Not to get too deep into it but he was controlling, did a lot of gaslighting, made me feel as if I wasn’t good enough for anyone.

That's exactly how I feel. In fact when I discovered the concept of gaslighting I was like "Eureka"....
Though a part of me deep inside thinks maybe I was the one who was doing the gas-lighting unknowingly and I'm the guilty one?
Meh.... well time to move one

[War Chef]

that’s what dr. laura says, especially for single mothers, but i was already in a relationship by the time i heard it. if it doesn’t work out, i’m not going to get into another relationship.

Do you need someone to complete you? Do you have a void you're trying to fill?
IDK I fill it with spirituality. Like I'm big on Buddhism

[Celestia]

That's exactly how I feel. In fact when I discovered the concept of gaslighting I was like "Eureka"....
Though a part of me deep inside thinks maybe I was the one who was doing the gas-lighting unknowingly and I'm the guilty one?
Meh.... well time to move one

Well no one is perfect. I can say some extremely ugly things when I’m hurt. My words can cut like knifes, I’m not proud of it but I’m working on it. As long as you acknowledge your wrong doing and put effort into bettering yourself, you’ll be fine.

[Chaos One]

You girls are strong and will bypass this.

Find the correct place to get help and make it happen - for sure you can find something better in your life.

[War Chef]

You girls are strong and will bypass this.

Thanks bro, but actually I'm a transvestite

[Chaos One]

Thanks bro, but actually I'm a transvestite

Hi, xxx!

[Harley]

Do you need someone to complete you? Do you have a void you're trying to fill?
IDK I fill it with spirituality. Like I'm big on Buddhism

it is said that youth is wasted on the young.

when i was younger, i craved acceptance and affection, as i had neither when growing up. that i’m older, i understand that people are not always good and will orient themselves around their ideas of how things should be.

i don’t believe i’ve had an environment until recently conducive for me to process and come to my own conclusions. i’ve kept adapting to keep moving forward, and now i’m older. thanks for coming to my ted talk lol.

[War Chef]

2. Mind precedes all mental states. Mind is their chief; they are all mind-wrought. If with a pure mind a person speaks or acts happiness follows him like his never-departing shadow

3. "He abused me, he struck me, he overpowered me, he robbed me." Those who harbor such thoughts do not still their hatred.

4. "He abused me, he struck me, he overpowered me, he robbed me." Those who do not harbor such thoughts still their hatred.

5. Hatred is never appeased by hatred in this world. By non-hatred alone is hatred appeased. This is a law eternal.

Dhammapada, ancient Buddhist text

[War Chef]

it is said that youth is wasted on the young.

when i was younger, i craved acceptance and affection, as i had neither when growing up. that i’m older, i understand that people are not always good and will orient themselves around their ideas of how things should be.

i don’t believe i’ve had an environment until recently conducive for me to process and come to my own conclusions. i’ve kept adapting to keep moving forward, and now i’m older. thanks for coming to my ted talk lol.

It's all good. Just don't look back on what "could've been".....
Inner peace is important.

My problem is I'm the male equivalent of the church girl who falls in love with the bad-boy biker ....... though it's a she.
I think I can "fix" her and at the end of it I end up needing the fixing.
But it's all good. Life goes on

[Harley]

Dhammapada, ancient Buddhist text

the bolded text reminds me of my conversations with my friend over the phone. he told me that it’s normal to hate my ex for stuff he did to me, but then to process it and let it go. that it was normal. it’s normal to feel pain and it’s normal to express disappointment.

i’m not used to doing either. i’m used to closing everything up. i think that’s why i’m at an overload currently. i wasn’t acknowledging a lot of my own feelings.