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I should clarify a few things before I go. I was born in America; I was talking about my ethnicity and how that helps explain how the culture of the area was very different from what I would have grown up in. And they were middle class, non-addicts, etc. definitely not the horror stories you hear about some foster/adoption homes being. But she was like a secret psycho and he was afraid of her so he let her do whatever. She wouldn't do nightly beatings, she would do other weird things like stand in my doorway when I was trying to fall asleep, just anything that was f#$%ed up but not something I could like call the police over, mostly. The state is involved in sex trafficking children domestically, that's not what this was. In a lot of ways I had a normal childhood. I'm just curious as to why it seems the state made sure I was with these people and not with my family.
I get what you're saying, I can have a nice time with small talk but the amount of time you have to spend just chit chatting with people to get them to stay on an interesting topic for more than 5 minutes is just not worth it. I make sure my in laws have a nice time when we visit, I chit chat with people when we're out and about (at the library, the playground, etc.) because they're there and I'm there and I represent my family by doing so. We get invited to things and I act personable. We're even borderline chit chatting right now. I can do it, I can even enjoy it for a time, but I keep my distance so I can pretty much avoid it whenever I can without hurting their feelings. I'm probably mostly just so used to having all that time to my thoughts that I don't want to give it up.
I saw you say somewhere that you like to learn about people, I hope this was an interesting case study for you lol. I feel bad because usually I am the listener/observer, and all I know about you is that you seem rather insightful and had an excellent father, which I enjoyed hearing about. I'm going to go ahead and sign off of this thread. Thanks for the interesting conversation; you made a lot of good points. See ya round the apracity.
Sorry for the unrelated notifications everyone, I'll try not to do it again. Good luck with your search for the answer to what women want.
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