I Wish I Had Spent the Last 16 Years Tabletop Role-Playing.

[Occiput in Starlight]

But I haven't.

I haven't rolled dice in the pursuit of roleplay even once.

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I wish I had a library full of ttrp books. But I don't.

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I would that I were reading a World of Darkness book right now, while sipping hot chocolate. I'm not.

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I once came close to achieving it - being a tabletop role-player, I mean.

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Even if I had spent the last sixteen years just reading ttrp books, no actual role-playing - that would be just as wonderful.

[InmostLight]

Anything is a tabletop roleplay if you sit at a table and imagine hard enough

[Occiput in Starlight]

Anything is a tabletop roleplay if you sit at a table and imagine hard enough

I know but there is a whole ttrp subculture I have missed out on.

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A few times in college I saw the ttroleplayers walking through the adjoining public park at twilight - sharing a doobie - on the way to the biweekly games night of our college's ttrp club (hosted on campus).

I envied them so much.

[Occiput in Starlight]

I know but there is a whole ttrp subculture I have missed out on.

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A few times in college I saw the ttroleplayers walking through the adjoining public park at twilight - sharing a doobie - on the way to the biweekly games night of our college's ttrp club (hosted on campus).

I envied them so much.

I envied them their socializing.

And I envied them their senses of self - because I often fantasize about having a sense of self which heavily revolves around ttroleplaying.*


* I made the assumption that ttroleplaying is important in each of their lives (because that is exactly what I was wanting for myself, psychologically).

[Occiput in Starlight]

Everyone wants meaning in their life.

I often wish ttroleplaying were mine.