I kind of am.

I've got chronic oneitis. For me she's like forest fairy, looks like ancient Celtic elf goddess, well mannered, academic, artistic, empathic, strong, independent, but also sensible, well manner, but unapproachable.

Trying to get her for me is like playing some video game on hardcore ultra-extreme difficulty mode what drives me even more.

I feel like true alpha male, because I'm trying to conquer her love, instead of coping and settling with undesired second choices.

Maybe I'm insane par excellence, but at the end who can tell difference between sanity and insanity?

It's uphill battle against unfavorable odds, same as when Ukraine fights Russia or when xPeke made unexpected comeback backdoor in League Of Legends Katowice tournament in 2013., or as when Raphael defeated Yami Yugi/Atem (undefeated main protagonist).

If I win her heart, it would be epic victory for me and next week I go out with her, after months and months of hard work that got me to that point.

I even lost more than 30 kg to show her power of my iron will.