How do you feel at this very moment?

[Bogzic]

Good

[rhiannon]

Hopeful that our household toilets will continue to work otherwise I'm gonna have to make like a bear and go....

Had a plumbing disaster last night lol

[bot]

Today I'm referring back to my original post where I had been down a few weeks because of my New Year resolutions. Actually it's a list I had been making for the last two months or so. I have been experiencing chaotic feelings that come from needing to make changes to improve my station in life and the challenges that come with it. I'm sure that at least many of you are familiar with the "freak out" feeling that comes with change and having to deal with issues you might have been avoiding and not wanting to face, especially when it has to do with deeply seated fears and old traumas.

Things aren't happening as fast as I'd like but someone came into my life unexpectedly out of the blue recently who offered to help with a part of it. It's like the opportunity just fell into my lap even though it's too soon to say for sure - there's a possibility I might get biophoton treatment with the Chiren and it might be very low cost or even free for me, which is very great news, but I won't hold my breath.



I might have to reassess and plot out my strategy and plans anew. I suspect it's something I'll have to do on an ongoing basis since things tend to change.

I'm also rediscovering that, while I'll swallow my pride and try to accept help from people when it comes (I have bad experiences where people are kind to me but underneath they have ulterior motives or expectations I'm not aware of and then they are cruel or jump down my throat so now I'm wary of people who seem too nice) I have to be prepared and outline a plan that I can largely do for myself since I won't always be able to count on others.

Since my original post I've had times where I feel very hopeful and other times where I feel confused and like a raging river inside.

Right now I feel somewhat trapped, melancholic, grief, restless and anxious but mostly numb.

beep

[Liac]

Lame

[rhiannon]

Somewhat down/depressed. Have been alone a lot lately because hubs is always gone. Usually fine with it but in the past few weeks I've just been feeling generally kind of sad. Have no friends here anymore since they're all far away. Talking to a 6 year old all the time can only go so far LOL.

The plumbing disaster still isn't completely resolved, either lol

[armenianbodyhair]

sleepy.

[Hierarchalist]

Sleepy, going to bed....I kinda like this place...check back in tomorrow after work.... Ta

[Beit El]

[CordedWhelp]

Bored, but not apathetic. Pretty eager to air myself out and go do something.

[portusaus]

I need a lighter but the weather does not permit walking to the store; I am 'pickled'.